I looked forward to seeing you today.
I wore my nice shoes. I don’t wear them often because they are too high and I have a reputation to maintain. I picked out my clothes carefully, you know. Even though these jeans are made in China, they have the superb effect of tucking it all in. As I tidied my hair, I thought about what scent I should wear. A cocktail of Cucumber, Cocoa Butter and an Elizabeth Arden, were what I chose to settle with.
When I walked, I noticed my gait and posture in my constant companion, causing me to immediately straighten up. Even the cab guy was on time… Never happens. He always says he is at the stage but it’s never the same stage in both your minds. He knows he is knowingly misleading you, but won’t make an effort to correct your assumption.
My head was held high as I walked to our spot and waited to see you. I am always early, that has alway been my problem. Not that I mind, though. Not today. Today, everything was going so well… Today, was the day.
I found our spot, mine not to far from where it falls and yours a little off to my right. We should pick another spot… Maybe one a little more private.
I sat waiting. I don’t mind waiting. Waiting is the price you pay for being early. I am always early, so that means I am always waiting.
You didn’t show. You never came. You sent a friend. You couldn’t come. I stare at my shoes and steady my breath. The shadow imprint of my toes and that of the shoe’s previous owners, suddenly became an interesting study.
What wasted time. What wasted effort. What wasted …
I look at my phone, willing myself not to search for your contact in my green app. Yes, I am one of those girls. Stand me up and I will text you with a plausible excuse you could have.
I push you to the back of my mind and I walk home. The cab guy didn’t pick and others were charging exorbitant fares. So walking was my portion, in these shoes that I chose to impress you with. I will myself to think about not falling because the road was not built with my shoes in mind. Who can blame the road workers? They didn’t know that little old me would be walking home stood up.
I finally get home. Slightly stressed, low on sugar and hope.
Then I see her. She looks different. When did she change so much? She looks strained. She looks older. She looks tired. Where have I been looking all this time? When did she become like this? Where have I been looking?
All this time I have catered to this hope, walking while wrapped in an aura of possibility. Dreaming dreams of one-day-soon, while my own flesh and blood was slowly wasting away!
My gaze is turned back where it should be. My dear friend, you were an amazing wisp that appeared in hurricane season – not only did we never stand a chance, we never will.
We never will because this isn’t the time. The time seems to have been long past and all I am doing is wallowing in the aftermath of a forgotten season.
The pain is back, the one in my chest. It’s more of an ache really. An old fear back to haunt me…. Only this time, this time fight is not necessary for I fully acknowledge — this is my new beginning.
Socks!
Tis a shame about the wasted shoes. Methinks it’s time to retire both the shoes and the undefined friendship.
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The shoes that complimented the friendship.
Tehehe.. They have both been retired.
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One question, did she get high on sugar and hope later?
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Haha… Not yet, but she is getting there.
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Funny how cab guys always corporate with misfortune, they disappear when you most need them! 😦
Really nicely written!
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You know!
These cabbies need to get with the program!
Thanks for stopping by, Vickie!
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what an awesome read Lynn…. what a choice of nice shoes and scent to wear to meet this friend. I loved this
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Youuuu!
Where have you been?
Thanks for dropping by and reading 💜
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Amazing.
The heels feel free to mail them over.
I know a few roads that would appreciate it..
” I will myself to think about not falling because the road was not built with my shoes in mind”
I loved that line
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Awwww, thanks for dropping by, my dear!
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On the contrally, text me “your friends’ number”, he could have just earned himself the book “Men are from Mars, Women are from…”
Nice read!
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Hahahaaaaaa….
Thanks for dropping by, Brian.
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New beginning are made of such…
Great read!
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Hi Sibo!!
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The shoes….can I see them? 🙂
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Noooo! GumGum!
No trust you around my shoes…
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sweet with a sour feeling..hmm low on sugar, i feel you ooooo… grace to follow in retiring of seasons ….liked. good read……
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mmmmmmmmph so real. So real…then again you write for us both…love reading you…
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Awww… Thanks for passing by Jax! 😘
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